a good read.

i've been thinking justttt a little lately about how it'd be cool to try and write a book. This is obviously just a dream and I have yet to even figure out where to start.
First I thought I'd write about when I was drinking and lost a close friend and just a lot of crazy shit went down. SO I pulled out all the journals from that time in my life and got to reading, reminiscing. It was not as hard as it used to be to go back to that place. And I've even started thinking about throwing those journals/notebooks away. My aunt from Chicago made a suggestion - Burn them...burn them to signify moving on, moving forward. And I feel I have. For sure. NO question about it.
And to be honest...it's just way to freaking depressing. I'm not depressed, I don't want to be depressed, I know a girl who is depressed (and she has every right to be because she's a loser)...okay..that was harsh but if you KNEW this chic. Yeah, no tears would be shed for her.

so I started thinking that my life is kinda fun. I have a pretty fun attitude and can put a good spin on my mundane daily routine and it got me to thinking about funny stuff that happens in my cubicle land at work and typical things that happen daily. AND the fact that I can get down about things....easily, unpredictably. That Jacob thinks I'm a handful but chooses to love the crap out of me anyways and that I have Jacob and I'll say it again and again and again...he makes me want to write something happy. I want to be done with the other stuff....mostly for his sake;)

for instance...what if the layout/title looked something like this:

- coming and going from a cubby
- daily thoughts from a cubicle
- i don't remember going to work any day

301am - alarm goes off. YES. I'm that person who needs, well....thinks that they're tricking their body into thinking they are getting LOTS more sleep by waking it up at 3am and then doing the happy dance when realizing it has ONE more full hour of sleep!! Whooo HOOO!

401am - SERIOUSLYYYYY That could NOT have been an hour. My head just hit the freaking pilllllowwww!!!!! ahhhhhhhh!!!!! snooze.

410am - fuc****. snooze.

419am - why 9 minutes?! WHY NOT AN EVEN 10 MINUTES?!?!!!?!? fuc****. snooze.

558am - rolling into work with 2 minutes to spare...scorrrrre.

601am - clear coating my nails.

7am-1pm - saving lives.....saving lives...saving lives....annoying manager invading my lunch time personal space...saving lives...saving lives....saving lives.

1229pm - i would give anything for a mini hippo...baby size. Yep. For real. I want one for my house.

156pm - clocking out

207pm - barely conscious drive home

.....and then on and on and on. After reading back through this....will this book actually depress me?!;) I have a feeling that the festivities after 2pm will make up for the, sometimes, nonproductive day I have.